You'll never leave where you are, until you decide where you'd rather be

How does one begin on why they abruptly decided to leave Argentina? Because I have no idea.

So let’s put the past 5 months into perspective. The first month I did a TEFL training course to get certified, I was around people I knew every day for 4 weeks straight. Then I went straight into working, just a few classes here and there then I was overwhelmed with classes. Which was great, it kept me busy like everyone else in the city. At that point,  life was great… yeah I was stressed out, but then life started speeding by. There was no time for fun and only time for rest on the weekends, which I loved. I worked for 3 more months and then mom and dad came. From the moment they booked their ticket until the time they left I had no idea what was going on with work or the outside world. It was great to see familiar faces. Then Emily came, even more familiar faces. As this is happening I am down to only teaching 2 classes per day. It was great while Em was here because we got to hang out, but it left a lot of extra time in the day and not really much to do. I’ve seen it all, conquered it all it seems like. Then Dayna leaves… then Suji leaves. So now it’s back to me teaching 3 hours a day, 4 days a week and that’s if I’m lucky and all my students come!

Which constantly kept me wondering, why am I still here? I need my core group of friends and family around me and here I don’t have that. That’s just me. Everyone knows how anal I am and I need schedule. I need to know what I’m doing and where I need to be and at what time.

For everyone who thinks I hated Argentina, you’re wrong. This place truly is magical. It’s absolutely incredible, but it’s not for me and I’m very glad that I realized that now before I became super unhappy.

Whoever tells you that life in a foreign country is easy, especially when they speak a different language and have a completely different culture, is wrong. It’s not easy, it’s actually really hard especially when your alone. I am so thankful to have had this opportunity. I am so thankful that my parents and Emily could come down and be exposed to what’s been called "home" for the past 5 months.

But now my bags are packed. It’s been a crazy unforgettable adventure that I was so blessed to have. I have learned so much about life and myself in the past 5 months. But it’s my time to go home. It’s time to settle down and really have a place to call home. I need my wonderful family and friends to be just a phone call away… just an hour drive. Those are the things I value.

It will be a bittersweet goodbye. It feels right that the journey is ending.  I have made the most amazing friends that I would not have made it this long without them and I cannot thank them enough.

“You’ll never leave where you are, until you decide where you’d rather be..” and I’ve decided where I’d rather be..